I received official information on Friday that the mass in his kidneys, stomach and lymph nodes was lymphoma. He had been having difficulty eating since coming back from the pet emergency. He was showing signs of nausea which seemed to get worse and worse. I picked up an appetite stimulant, but was told it only works in 50-70% of cats. I tried. But I had already told myself that I was NOT going to put my boy thru anything if he was in discomfort or pain!
Last night, kodak slept by my head. My hand was under his paw all night long! I would wake up periodically and he'd be up with his eyes open, unusual for him.
This morning he ate a little bit then came to sit in my lap but then the rest of the day he appeared to be uncomfortable. He wouldn't close his eyes nor put his head down and he didn't want to sit in my lap. He would sniff his food but didn't eat anything.
It was time..... I didn't want him to be in any pain or discomfort! He has been my rock, been there for me thru a divorce, numerous break-ups and has traveled throughout the country with me while I was working! He has been with me longer than my ex husband! I had to be there for him tonight!
He was in the comfort of his home and my bed on a warm blankie when he went to the Rainbow Bridge. I couldn't stop crying but I knew deep in my heart I was doing the best thing for him!
Kodak, I will miss you so much! I will miss your thump walk, I will miss you sleeping on my pillow, I will miss you pawing at my leg so that you can sit in my lap, I'll miss seeing you sunning yourself on the balcony. I will miss my rock!!!
I love you sweet boy! I will NEVER forget you! I hope you are feeling better now. I never wanted you to suffer!
Rest in Peace my sweet boy! I hope Winton greeted you! I will see you again! But you will always be a part of my heart!
I love you Kodak. You have left a paw print on my heart that will never go away!
March 1996- August 20, 2011
39 comments:
Mom Kim here...I am so, so sorry. I don't have words that will comfort, but I *know* that kind of loss.
Please know I'm sending you hugs and universal Light, and the boys are sending soft purrs.
Oh no. I am so very sorry for your loss. I am glad that his trip to the Bridge was gentle, and he was with you to the end.
Rest in peace, Kodak. You were a Good Boy.
Oh Penny. We feel for you and share your pain. We know how much you love all of your kids, and how very much you will miss Kodak. But you gave him a wonderful life and we know he went to the Bridge full of love and gratitude for you.
Hugs, Purrs, Woofs and Neighs
All of the Poupounette Gang
Oh, no, we are so sorry about the loss of your Kodak. We were hoping you would have more time together but sometimes that isn't to be. We know you didn't want him to suffer.
Sending a hug, purrs and wags for you.
My heart is breaking for you and I am all teary eyed upon finding out about this. The Meezers and I are so sorry sweet Kodak had to run off to the Bridge, and we are sending you our most heartfelt prayers and all of our love to help you through this sad and painful time. We know Angel Winton was waiting there to greet Kodak as was my Angel Max.
Many, many ((((hugs)))) ...
Momma Jan, Sabrina, Sam and Simon
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Oh we are so very sorry to hear Kodak has gone to the Bridge. We hope all the good memories you have of him will help you through this sad time. We send you comforting purrs and headbutts.
I am so sorry for your loss, purrs & prays for you all.
joanne
jane
jill
johnny
jay boy
jasmine
capu from Singapore
We're so sorry for your loss. We're sending you comforting purrs.
With very many purrs for you. There is an extra light beyond that rainbow now. x
Oh our purrs to you. It sounds like his trip was gentle and that he had a friend with him as far as you could go. No doubt there were many old blogosphere friends and family who were there to guide him on the other side. Purrs.
We are so sad to hear that gorgeous Kodak ran off to the Bridge.
Sending you love and purrs and headbumps,
KC
Missy Blue Eyes
Faith Boomerang
Sol
Smokey
Brutus Jr.
Mom ML
We are very sorry to hear that your beloved Kodak has gone over the Bridge.
I maked a Tribute Badge fur Kodak, it's on the Cat Blogosphere.
Feel free to copy it and use it on yours bloggies.
We will miss Kodak furry much and send lots of purrs to his Mom, cause we know hers feels so lonely now.
Love & Purrs,
KC
So sorry. Sometimes all you can do to help is let them go, no matter how much it hurts you.
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We are so sorry for the loss of your sweet boy, Kodak and send you gentle, comforting purrs. It is so hard to lose such a friend as he was for you, but you gave him so much in return and he loved you for it.
Run free at the Bridge, handsome Kodak ...
'Kaika and the Yosemite cats
I am so sorry to hear about Kodak. I am thankful that his passing was peaceful too.
I understand what you mean by his being your rock. I felt the same way about Mickey. He was with me for over 17 years and helped me through a lot of things too!
Kodak will leave a big hole in your heart, be he will keep an eye on you from the Bridge :)
Peace to you Kdoak!!
Hugs,mom Nancy
Me and my cat Charlie came over from Jan's Funny Farm. We are so so so so sorry to hear about angel Kodak. What a sweet boy. We're so glad he was surrounded by such love and comfort in his last moments. Purrs and hugs, take care
x
kodak, you were such a hansum boy. i'm glad you are now free ov da sickie and running free at da brdige
I am so sorry for your loss. He looks like such a gorgeous big handsome boy with those great big mancat paws like my Eric had.
Hugs to you and 3Perf and Blossom
Kate
(mum of the late great Fat Eric and now of Dora)
My sisters and I are so very sorry to hear about your sweet Kodak. We all send you many purrs and hugs.
We are so sorry to hear of the loss of Kodak. Our deepest purrs at your sorrow and we are sending our loving purrs to Kodak.
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♥Abby♥Boo♥Ping♥Jinx♥Grace♥
We're very sorry to hear that Kodak had to run off to the Bridge. Thank you for loving him so much. Please know we are sending you purrs and prayers of comfort.
Fly free now, sweet Kodak.
We're so sorry that Kodak has gone to the Bridge. We will send healing purrs and prayers to you.
The Florida Furkids and Angel Sniffie
Soft husky woooos,
RA
Oh, we are so sad with your loss. It is so very hard saying goodbye to a loved and trusted little companion who's been with you through thick and thin. Our hearts are broken with yours.
Adios, sweet Kodak. We will see you on the other side.
May you rest in peace now Kodak. No more pain for you. You are happy and free over The Bridge now! Say hi to Annie and Gatsbi from us, ok?
Purrs and purrayers from us to you and your family.
Luf, Us and Maw
We are so sorry to hear that Kodak had to leave for The Bridge. We are sending soft comforting purrs to your family.
Purrs,
Cory and family
we are so sad that you have gone to the Bridge Kodak. We won't say good bye but we will say Until we meet at the Bridge.
Our hearts are hurting for you MsKodak'sMom - we are sending you many purrrrsss and hugs
Our condolences, purrs, and purrayers.
Nikita Cat
Elvira Mistress of Felinity
Daddy Kiril
Sending snuggles and purrs on your loss. The Kodak-shaped hole in your heart will always remain but the memories will help fill it, so it won't hurt so much.
Taz, Runt, Charles and mommy, Anna, in Illinois
We didn't get a chance to know Kodak but we are very sorry for your loss. We know he is healthy and waiting for you.
So hard to loose a dear, sweet friend. He left you with love and tenderness surrounding him, and waits at the Rainbow Bridge.
Hugs and prayers for you,
~ Anna Sue and Mom Bobbie
Mom Helen here - Your decision to help ease his pain was the kindest and most loving act that you could have performed. It is also the most painful for you. We are so sorry for your loss of your precious boy. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. He wasn't "just a cat" as some may say, he was a member of your family and a piece of your heart.
(((hugs)))
mom Helen & crew
We feel your loss today. Mom losted the firstest cat at home when him was 15. Efun tho you knew it was time for Kodak, it nefur feels like the rite time fur those left behind. He's happy and whole again, and knows how very much you love him.
Purrs
We are so sorry. Kodak had a good journey because of your love. He was a gorgeous boy. Sending purrs and love
Gerry & Oliver
Kodak's Mom, I know we don't know you, but we heard from our friend William that you had had a sadness, and wanted to let you know that we're thinking of you. I hope that as time goes by your happy memories will sustain you and the sad ones melt away, though the ache of missing Kodak will I know always be somewhere within.
Hugs to you!
Tucker's Mom
So sorry for the loss of your sweet, handsome boy, Kodak. Your choice to not let him suffer was made out of love; he knew he was loved. Run free, Kodak!
Laura and Taffy
We just dropped by to leave a hug and some purrs and wags to let you know we are thinking of you.
We're so sorry that Kodak has to go to the Rainbow Bridge. We didn't see this until now as our momma lost her momma recently, so we haven't been able to keep up .
Sending purrs to your on your loss,
Charlemagne, Tamar and Mal
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