Tonight around 8:30pm, my amazingly wonderful faithful, loving, intuitive, smart stoic boy, Kodak, made his way to the Rainbow Bridge. I was there stroking his beautiful fur while he made his journey.
I received official information on Friday that the mass in his kidneys, stomach and lymph nodes was lymphoma. He had been having difficulty eating since coming back from the pet emergency. He was showing signs of nausea which seemed to get worse and worse. I picked up an appetite stimulant, but was told it only works in 50-70% of cats. I tried. But I had already told myself that I was NOT going to put my boy thru anything if he was in discomfort or pain!
Last night, kodak slept by my head. My hand was under his paw all night long! I would wake up periodically and he'd be up with his eyes open, unusual for him.
This morning he ate a little bit then came to sit in my lap but then the rest of the day he appeared to be uncomfortable. He wouldn't close his eyes nor put his head down and he didn't want to sit in my lap. He would sniff his food but didn't eat anything.
It was time..... I didn't want him to be in any pain or discomfort! He has been my rock, been there for me thru a divorce, numerous break-ups and has traveled throughout the country with me while I was working! He has been with me longer than my ex husband! I had to be there for him tonight!
He was in the comfort of his home and my bed on a warm blankie when he went to the Rainbow Bridge. I couldn't stop crying but I knew deep in my heart I was doing the best thing for him!
Kodak, I will miss you so much! I will miss your thump walk, I will miss you sleeping on my pillow, I will miss you pawing at my leg so that you can sit in my lap, I'll miss seeing you sunning yourself on the balcony. I will miss my rock!!!
I love you sweet boy! I will NEVER forget you! I hope you are feeling better now. I never wanted you to suffer!
Rest in Peace my sweet boy! I hope Winton greeted you! I will see you again! But you will always be a part of my heart!
I love you Kodak. You have left a paw print on my heart that will never go away!
March 1996- August 20, 2011